Depression
Life seems too hard to figure out at times. Events are unfolding in the world that are so ironic that my mind has trouble processing them. Currently there are hundreds of people dying from a hurricane off the southern cost of the US while elsewhere tourists are sunbathing, sipping on cocktails. 852 million people are going to wake up tomorrow hungry (http://www.bread.org/hungerbasics/international.html). At the same time I work at a party as a valet and spend three hours throwing away wasted food for a man rich enough to feed 800 friends expensive seafood. Two nights ago I was at work and my friend, who has cerebral palsy, stopped by to chat for a while. I reached in his backpack to grab something for him and noticed some medicine needed to perform an enema. Just 10 minutes before I was complaining to myself because my feet were tired from standing while my friend has no idea what it is like to stand let alone have properly functioning bowels. My brother Dan spends his time working to help out orphans and widows in Uganda and Southern Sudan most of who struggle from one of many wars in Africa. Meanwhile I shop at Wal-Mart, drive an SUV, live in a big house and live a "western" life that helps aid in the wars around the world.
Most of the time I’m completely confused at how I’m supposed to live my life in light of what is going on around me. So I struggle on to gain the refreshing perspective that although humanity continues to make mistakes my creator is actively desiring to renew and love all.